Today is the most significant day in the Christian Calendar. It’s very important Christians recognize the importance of Easter. Today we are celebrating God raising his son our Lord and Savior from the dead and the destruction of sin and death forever. Jesus gave up His life for you and I to give us eternal life. Death is no more.
"For God so loved the World, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through Him." John 3:16 (ESV)
I am so happy. This is my first Easter sober and it’s very special to me. Brian and I are having a honey glazed ham with homemade mash potatoes and corn. We will be praying over dinner thanking Jesus for what He did for us. And also thank Him for being with us everyday. He has blessed me more than I can count. Always working miracles in my life. No longer do I have to strive to be perfect He loves me just the way I am. I am beyond grateful. He has opened my eyes and has given me my wisdom. I hope you are praying as well especially now more than ever. If your having a difficult time praying take a moment of silence and thank the Lord for everything he has done for us. He deserves our praise.
Most of the people I talk to don’t own a Bible. I’ve had so many before I was giving them out to close friends. But after moving from Central MA I lost all my books but I recently purchased a New Believers Bible for $5 at http://www.Harvest.org. http://harvest.org is a great website for Christians. One of the many I will reveal in my blog.
"Behold I am making all things new" -Jesus
When I was saved the song Waiting for Superman by Daughtry came out. It was a reflection of my life so much it gave me chills. God was speaking directly to me. God is real. And He wants me to know how He loves me so much my testimony is in a song. I am beyond blessed.
Flashback to 2011
My bedrooms was an oak wood with two side cases with two drawers below the cases on each side and the headboard was a bookshelf. This bookshelf was filled with books I never read but always wanted to. One of these books was the Bible. When I was a baby I was baptized then around 11 I received communion. I was hurt when I was little so my memories of my childhood are poor but I remember going to Sunday school learning about Jesus accepting Him into my life and I remember the day of my communion. Feeling like a bride dressed head to toe in all white with dainty gloves. It is a pleasant memory from my childhood one of few so it makes it very special. My brother and I both received communion. One would think or say I was saved during Sunday school but I knew who Jesus was I loved Him but I didn’t know what it meant to be a Believer. Jesus teaches how you must become spirit and water before entering the Kingdom of Heaven.
"Jesus answered, I say unto you unless one is born of water and the Spirit, he cannot enter the Kingdom of God. That which is born of the flesh is flesh, and that which is born of the Spirit is Spirit. Do not marvel that I said to you, "You must be born again." John 3:3 (ESV)
If we’ve been friends for quite some time you probably remember me plastered all over the news and the internet when I went missing in California. During this time I was being saved. On one particular day I picked up one of those books gathering dust on my bookshelf and it was the Bible. I started thinking about God and Jesus. I knew there was more to this world and I needed the Father. The west coast is vastly different than the east coast. In the west coast the churches are absolutely beautiful and there’s sunshine everyday. It is so beautiful. I call it God’s country. One day I’m going back I’m hoping and praying with my husband. But after I picked up that Book my life changed forever. Now obviously you can do the math; flashback to 2011 and I’m an addict. I was addicted to amphetamines, spending thousands of dollars on Adderall and going to the gym 7 days a week for 3 hours at a time. I dropped to 98 lbs. all muscle. But after reading the Gospels Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John I flushed them all down the toilet. Jesus died for me. I really understood what that meant and the power behind it. Flushing those pills was the first step to becoming a new Erika. However, suffering from a mental illness I started losing my mind. When I finished the Gospels I couldn’t stop crying. I isolated myself completely. Just like my testimony and how the song goes…I locked myself in my apartment for 90 days the part that the song doesn’t mention is how I gave away everything I owned. I didn’t know what I was going to do but I knew I wasn’t going to continue dating the guy I wasn’t in love with and I walked out on my job. The only thing I knew was I was not coming back to my mothers. No way in Hell was I going to live with her again. We love each other unconditionally but we can not live together. I was fearless. I was sick of pretending that things were going right with my boyfriend. He had everything. The home and money even had the Range Rover I dream of driving one day. But I was not in love I needed to find who I was. I refused to settle. So I took off in the middle of the night. I didn’t know how I was going to leave him and he honestly started scaring me because it was obvious I was ready to walk out the door at any moments notice so after he looked me dead in the eyes and it terrified me then went to bed I quickly did exactly what we both knew was coming I walked out the door. And I just walked and kept walking. My brother and now ex boyfriend found me a month later out of it. I did what most people would never do but I let everything go and I was being punished. Our God is a God of justice and I was paying for my sins. The Lord gives and the Lord takes away. Don’t get me wrong I love nice things just like most people and after giving everything away I was sad for a bit heck I threw a Louis Vuitton in the trash. But it cannot compare how God is with me and I have His favor. It made me humble.
"When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with the humble is wisdom." Proverbs 11:3 (ESV)
What does it mean to be humble? For me it means I know my worth. I don’t compare myself with others and I don’t define myself by how much I weigh anymore and I care and love everyone. Thanks to God and His love I love myself now too. Thank you Jesus. Thank you for saving my life and all the wonderful things you do for us everyday.