Today is March 23, 2020 it is a Monday. Ever since I started reading 52 Weeks with Jesus I look forward to Mondays. How odd is that? Some would say I’m odd. I would agree.
Today is the start of the quarantine. I’m grateful for my health but some others don’t have that security and my heart goes out to them. Our God is a God of miracles. The things He has done for me are too many to count. No matter what test what trial God has always been with me. I am extremely grateful He loves me the way He does. His forgiveness is beautiful. And friends He loves you just as much.
October 27, 2019 is a big day for me; its the first day of my sobriety. It took fourteen years to clean my act up. But I finally did. I didn’t have it easy. I raised myself, my mom being a single mom of six. But God was with me everyday. He has literally saved my life more times than I can count. I was in a really bad place heading to an even scarier place and thank God I got my act together. I wanna pause and pray the Serenity Prayer during this difficult time in history.
The Serenity Prayer:
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference. Father, give us courage to change what cannot be helped, and the insight to know the one from the other. Living one day at a time, Enjoying one moment at a time, accepting hardships as a pathway to peace, Taking, as Jesus did, This sinful world as it is, Not as I would have it, Trusting that You will make all things right, If I surrender to Your will, So that I may be reasonably happy in this life, And supremely happy with You forever in the next. Amen.
This prayer hits deep right now cause I’m in a complicated situation. As I mentioned, I’m picking up the pieces of the mess I made when you don’t have much guidance growing up; don’t get me wrong my mom did the best for could but she was a baby having a baby. I give all the praise and love to my mom who did it all by herself. I love you mom. But when you don’t have guidance you can be like me and don’t do what I did. Let me be your living testimony to not do the things I did or change your ways so you are living a healthy happy life. I’m so grateful I can say I’m 4 months and 25 days clean today. Thats huge. Considering I spent 14 years partying thinking I was having fun and not having to deal with the hurt from the past. It taught me a lot about forgiveness and being around that person who hurt me again. Acting like everything is normal but every time I see this person that’s the first thing I think of. It’s crazy. But I forgive and move on. Grace found me. I just wanted to be free so I let it go. I actually got him a card one Christmas and wrote I forgive you on it. He is an antichrist so him and I are heading down two completely different paths. But I forgave and let go. However, it did mess me all up in life starting from a very young girl. But I can say God is with me and I see so much for the future. Breakthrough after breakthrough. Mind you I’m still single, I’ve been single for the past 9 years; since 2011. I decided I didn’t want to be with anyone till I was my best self and I was a hot mess. I was no where ready to be committed to anyone. I’m so glad I made that choice. I got to learn a lot about myself. And our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Now I’m tackling how to let go of sin. Read Acts 3:19
Now repent of your sins and turn to the Lord. People to believe is to repent and to let go; in order to mature in your walk with the Lord. No one is perfect except for Jesus so we all fall short that’s why God gave us the gift of Grace. Now during this next phase in my life. I’m going to find out what interests me. I love reading. Right now I’m studying the Bible Plan 52 Weeks with Jesus by James Merritt. I started this in November of 2019. And now I’m also reading Becoming a Prayer Warrior by Elizabeth Alvez. Well now I’m going to go enjoy this 46 degree weather, we have in New England and go for a jog then do some lower body exercises. I’m excited. I love working out and right now to be honest I’m trying to lose weight. I’m 5’1″ and weigh 135. Thats higher than my BMI should be so here I go. Enjoy the moment people. We only have this life. There are no second changes. Peace out.